Hi
Wow I only posted yesterday, but I feel like I need to write this down to maybe make sense of it.
My head has put barriers up again. Between me and my partner, me and my happiness, me and my progress.
Coupled with the numbness, I just feel so out of control.
Simple things like kissing my partner, feel like an impossible task, I donāt understand.
Theyāre getting upset about the way Iām acting, which is very understandable.
Every kind of action they would like me to do, hugs, kisses, cuddling, all feels impossible and almost wrong? I wish I knew how to describe it.
I donāt know what the fuck is wrong with me.
Itās cold today.
Thereās a big birds nest in the tree outside my window that Iāve started to notice more now that the leaves have fallen off the trees.
Have a good week.
Goodbye.